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Welcome to Between The Stools on 8th May 2022. This day is Julian of Norwich day, for on this day in 1373, she had her visions, and this is the third time (in three possible Mays of Between The Stools existing) that we have met then. Although she may be along later, and is likely to feature in 2023, as it’s the 650th anniversary, this year, I am thinking of another topic. How does one follow a themed Lent season and the build up towards a long gestated book launch? Truly, the time since April 10th – the 110th anniversary of Titanic’s sailing day – and Easter, the Sunday following, has felt fallow; it seems that at least two seasons have come to completion; and although spring has truly arrived, that in another sense, I – and the world – and perhaps you – still await vernal signs.
Today, we are thinking about friendship – something which has long been important to me.
I had touched on this in recent services and posts: that of Anne of Green Gables and one of my Lent pieces on the Titanic. Friendship is the basic building block of connection. It is what makes a neighbour or colleague or community member become more than association by juxtaposition. It is at the heart of good family and romantic partnerships. It is also something we may preclude in our professional relationships: I have had advisors tell me that I am not their friend, and can’t be; and yet I have seen church ministers sign off ‘your friend and pastor’. Friendship is the opposite of being distant and clinical; it breaks down barriers.
Some of us might be listening to/reading this feeling an absence of friends. I was aware when I chose this for a topic – hopefully with some divine guidance – that it could feel ironic and painful. I wondered if I might have friendship challenges this weekend. Like mothers’ and fathers’ day, we can feel acutely aware of all that can go wrong with that relationship, and perhaps enumerating those issues, from loneliness and fall outs, to bereavement and worry about the welfare of our friends, can not feel helpful.
So I want to take this moment to pause and to pray. If you can hear nature where you are, and better yet, see it, enjoy the sounds. I find it to be wonderfully stilling. If you can hear birds where you are, let their song soothe you. I understand that its sound frequency is healing to humans. If you can reach out to an animal, do. If you can’t do those things, imagine them. Hear a gentle breeze in your mind; see the colours of verdant spring (or autumn, if you’re the other side of the world), the joy of young creatures exploring.
PRAYER …Be with us if we feel lonesome or hurt by friends, or worried about a friend, if we feel we’re bad at being a friend. Help us to know that You are our friend, and that we are loved and not alone. Help this service to be comforting and helpful…
*Also know you can reach out to me, Elspeth; and I hope that we can become a community here of real friends. My email is at the end.*
Tonight is just talking – I can think of no music about friends – can you?
My thoughts have been scattered – I know I am not alone in that; and rather than focus on interpersonal relations, I have found myself, in the run up to preparing this, thinking about history and architecture – the opposite of friends. Yet even there I can see a connection.
Firstly, we might wish to define friendship. Can our friends be beings other than people? Of course, as every one of you who just reached to an animal can tell you. I will keep the subject of animals for another time, but their friendship is a special one, and can be a mirror of the divine. They have less of the complexities of human fickleness and caprice; it is not they who abuse us. The loving gaze of a dog can be very cathartic, as is the purr of a cat on your weary lap.
But can we be friends with things? Can nature be our friend? Ask Anne of Green Gables – of course. Nature is also a healer and a listener.
So, do we define friendship by that which gives us balm? What about the mutual exchange? Do we assist trees and flowers? I know that studies have been done – surely verified by plant lovers – that kindly tending to plants and talking to them helps them grow and even changes their cells.
What of non-living things? We might argue that personified things – a toy person or animal – becomes a friend because we treat them anthropomorphically; we breathe a life into them via our interaction with them. It is our imagination which ignites, although it is only a living thing in the imaginal. Is that any less real, though?
I am running up to asking if we can have friendships with buildings and cities. I kind of think so: they certainly give me succour, and I interact with them. I have often spoken of a place with personal grammar: “Norwich is a place who…”. Is it the people I meet within it that colour that? Yes, to an extent, but I have made relationships with a place where I either had barely any human interaction, or where my feelings for that city were despite the human ones. Buildings can be a thing to interact with when we are heartbroken and feel incapable of doing people. We may have other interests, or project fantasy ones. However, I am not judging or belittling that. I think that we learn through those, and that is true of the music and books and films or plays we partake in.
Yes, I also believe that we can have a valid relationship with a text… and I include the visual in that, but I will leave that thought and stay with buildings. For what I wanted to say was that as I considered Roman Britain – about which I’ve written a new post – I wondered if that race and era knew real friendship. It seems that the ancient Romans were about the antithesis of real friendship. Everything – as far as I understand – was based on commodity and usefulness. Abuse was at the heart of the society that easily used slaves, who saw wives as property, and who were interested in conquest and expansion. They brought hierarchy and inequality. They committed much sexual abuse. They discarded unwanted children brought into the world from their frequent fornication. In many relationships, people were things and thus there was no relationship.
And this era has been hugely influential here in Britain and the many other countries which were under Roman occupation.
It has occurred to me that the word ‘civilised’ is a misnomer. To be civilised for a Roman was to come under the civic, the organised urban settlement system that they created. Yet what they did often comes under that about which we might use the opposite word – barbaric: their violent punishments, including literally ‘the perversion of justice’; that ownership became the essence of society, and those who were owned had no power or status. I have read a catalogue of Roman misbehaviour, especially by some of its rulers. It was a deeply sick society, and I am tired of the word ‘civilised’, for it means quite the opposite of decency.
I have also heard that Romans were a hard people, distanced from emotions. Thus friendship is far from the Roman way, and a useful negative comparison to help us define what friendship is.
Friendship is about equality and mutuality. Friendship is about trust and choice. It is a voluntary association across any barrier and type. Friendship involves feelings, and being able to express them. A healthy friendship doesn’t use the other and commodify them; there is a genuine connection.
And unlike many other relationships, there’s no paperwork in friendship. By that, I don’t mean that you don’t write – for correspondence is a major part of friendship – but that there’s no formality to enter nor end a friendship. You may swap bracelets, and there are blood bondings, perhaps more rarely, but we don’t have friendship ceremonies. You don’t have a membership card or sign any contract, as you might to have entered a workplace or place or worship or gym to make the friend, although the relationship you have is not needing any written consent or formal approval. (Of course, we may encounter informal and very powerful disapproval of our friends).
Thus I think that friendship has to go deeper than merely neighbour, colleague or comrade; a real friend is someone who gets you and supports you and who you can be yourself with.
We might characterise friends as those who have seen you as you are, even at your ‘worst’ – what does that mean? – and are still your friend. I have heard a definition that a real friend is one you can be blunt with; Proverbs even speaks of punching our true friends.
It was tempting to assemble friendship quotes… ‘the elixir of life’; ‘few have praised its heights as few have plumbed the depths’ are two quotes from antiquity (Greek not Roman, I believe) that began an Elaine Storkey book I had some years ago. I long since parted with that book, particular for its gay views, but I was inspired by those quotes and they have stayed with me over two decades.
Yet we may chafe against such quotes if we’ve not had that experience of friendship, or are currently wounded by its absence.
I want to turn to the more challenging side of friendship, in the hope that it is of some comfort.
I mentioned that no formal ending is required, and I also mentioned what is not healthy. I am glad that this basic block of interaction often features in fiction and in advice; those friendship quotes are abundant. But they aren’t just about what’s wonderful in friendships; much online advice is about when to break off a friendship and when one isn’t good for you.
I took on tough love a couple of years ago, but I will say again here that despite some people’s opinion, I don’t think that saying ‘what’s hard to hear’ or ‘what you don’t want to hear’ makes someone a truth sayer, or a good friend. Why harshness, often as much about the speaker’s needs as the hearer’s, is considered useful and necessary is something to be very wary of. Perhaps we need building up and validating. I do think that honesty is an important value in friendship.
But if someone’s honesty is that they don’t like what you do, or really appreciate what’s important to you, does that make them too different to continue a friendship?
I am alarmed by the frequency of the application of the title of ‘toxicity’ to friendships. It has become a trendy word, oft used as a reason to cut someone out of your life.
I both have something to say about friendship endings, and a different perspective; and then two more (brief) points.
I believe that we have soul agreements and that the people who come into our lives are here to help us grow in particular ways, which on some level – that of our higher selves – we have chosen. I am wary because I know those who have suffered might feel this not comforting, and is callous if not dangerous. It does not excuse abusive behaviour. It does not take away freedom of choice, but it might explain the presence of others in our lives and help us to have a higher perspective before we apply the toxic label and end a relationship.
I think of so-called toxicity in people like that in our bodies. Modern medicine tells us to cut out straight away, for it’s dangerous, and perhaps that we have no other option. But I’ve been reading much about medicine over the last couple of years, and I’m intrigued by a different mindset – that of seeing viruses and even cancer as cleaning up imbalance. Rather than enemies to destroy, they are the scavengers of our own bodies, flushing out and bagging up impurities for disposal. They are not the impurities themselves, but a means of showing them and dealing with them.
I see ‘toxic relationships’ in the same way. These are our alarm bells to invite us to change.
As I write, I wonder if I want to publish this, let alone speak it out loud. For those who have suffered with a serious virus, or cancer, or watched someone else suffer, you might wonder how I can say so, as you might if you’ve been really hurt in friendship. I don’t say so glibly or without personal knowledge of these things.
What I am questioning is the slash and burn culture that doesn’t ask why they are here and what other responses might be. There is a quote from Maryam Hasnaa about challenging relationships, to the essence of:
‘If we cut off before the opportunity’s complete, it robs us of that lesson’. It can leave with more of the wounds which we are trying to heal from. Perhaps cutting off is exactly what we are meant not to do?
But this is a personal decision and you might find that a relationship has completed. I have oft heard that many of us are completing our soul agreements at this time and seeing several hitherto important relationships fall away. That statement might resonate and feel comforting to you, but I don’t like every questionable friendship to be swept into that category, and let them go without wondering if there isn’t more to come, or something to fight for. Shelley Young channelled a quote from an angel which said that if we entirely cut off energetically from someone that we miss the opportunity to be enriched by them again in the future.
I also think that cutting off is a way of saying: I don’t know how to handle this.
It can be onesided, us telling the other all the boundaries we set and therefore laying out our terms as non-negotiable. Thus it isn’t equitable and it’s unsurprising if the other person isn’t willing to simply acquiesce without adding any provisos of their own, which leads to an ending.
I also comment that to walk out of a job without resigning is seen as bad form; it probably is from a community, especially where you’ve been regular and hold a position; and to end a romantic relationship by silence is seen as very poor. But we often terminate our friendships that way, and perhaps I’ve heard some say that formal endings are too intense and unnecessary. Again, I am not going to tell you how to handle your friendships, and a missive or call telling you that it is over might feel too much; but I think that heading into oblivion, leaving the other party to gradually draw a conclusion is not authentic communication. Perhaps we don’t make a conscious decision; we withdraw after an argument, or we keep deciding not to contact the other. But note that each ‘I won’t today; I shan’t just yet’ is also a decision, and if we keep opting for that then we have de facto caused a rift which may be hard to mend.
For some, we have friends we hear from after long gaps and it can be joyful for someone to just pop up after many months or even years, and even be able to restart where you left off. But that is also not fair to assume, especially if the long gap followed a fall out or cutting off. It might be necessary in those circumstances – and I would certainly feel this – to apologise and make up for the past before being able to breeze into a newsy present.
I have two final shorter points:
To those that think that they can’t do friendships… I want to say that I suspect few of us have never suffered a waver in confidence about our friends. We might assume that everyone else can do this relationship, and seems to have more and better than us. Friendships can seem superficial in our social media age, but it’s not about a sassy gaggle to be seen about town with. I think that it’s OK to need to practice at friendships, and being a better one is a lifelong study. It’s also OK to state what you need and to ask the same of another; it’s OK to admit to being imperfect, to lacking in confidence, and out of the habit.
Thanks to the covid era – and I believe this to be deliberate – most of us will have gotten unused to mingling and perhaps feel rusty and even frightened at the thought of going out into the world. In one way, we can see that as a leveller; and I suspect all of us at one time have felt the need to branch out after a long relationship, caring for someone, or another change in circumstance, and perhaps wondered if only you would be the shy newcomer. Not at all – there will always be the surprise of someone else like you, and even if you bond over the unsuitability of the event you’re at, don’t lose heart. I’ve made friends at things we both thought: help – let’s hide.
I also urge real-ness, revealing at a pace you and the other feel comfortable at. Be yourself and don’t let prescriptive 3rd parties tell you how to behave.
If you have been badly hurt by friends, or just often let down, or not felt able to connect – don’t lose heart. I’m shortly going to pray about that.
Lastly: The Bible and friendships. You might have expected quotes from the Wisdom literature and the stories of Ruth, David, and Jesus and his bosom leaning disciple. But I was aware that I was using scripture to twist to what I wanted to say; and I also think that those three examples are possibly about romantic love, or at least, romantic friendship. I’m very interested in this and have written books about it. I like relationships which don’t fit our narrow categories and I repeat the quote from Cassady Cayne about being here to expand the expressions of love. For now, I want to flag up the possibility of passionate friendship, and that not all deep relationships have to be sexual.
I want to summarise that friendships are important, are spiritual, multi faceted, and can be as deep and long lasting as marriages – they can outlast them. We might have different levels of friendship and they change over time, and it is fine to ‘lose touch’ – interesting phrase – or let go, but I exhort people to be mindful about how they do that, and to not assume to do so because it’s sort of fashionable to cut off or assume that a challenge or a silence is meant to lead to permanent severance. Check for the learning and be willing to listen and not make all the demands. I want to encourage people to be real friends, to seek real friends, and that they are capable of being one.
Again, I remind that – perhaps surprisingly – God is our friend. Julian, whose anniversary it is today saw this; Neale Donald Walsch saw it – he even entitled a book that.
Brian Thorne said in a lecture on this occasion nine years ago that we are infinitely beloved, belovable and capable of beloving. He meant our relationship with God, but also one another.
PRAYER …If we have been hurt; heal us; give us courage, wisdom, forebearance, compassion, understanding, and show us ways to meet enriching friendships; help us make them here; be open to friends in many forms, and thank you for them and all who listen, and for my friends. Help us to be open to forgiving and seeking forgiveness; and thank you for this relationship and being with us. Help us to know better ones hereon. Be with us until next time. Amen
Do reach out and introduce yourselves, and I’m working on a way for us to be able to interact.
I’m Elspeth and my email is betweenthestools@hotmail.co.uk.
Next month’s meeting is on Sunday June 5th and the theme is Jubilee
July’s service will be on Diana for Magdalene Sunday
If you are interested in meeting live please let me know in advance