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Julian Follow Up 2: Julian and Judy’s Margaret

Sorry for this being later than I said; I’m still journeying with Julian – she is not a quick read!

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My picture: She is Our Clothing. An explanation is here

Instead of going through the book (which I’m having mixed feelings on… does Julian really speak to me?) I’d like to contrast Julian’s relations with God and those of Margaret – no, not St Margaret of Antioch, but Simons of New Jersey, the invention of Judy Blume, now receiving a screen outing after 53 years of being a popular book.

Both women are Western and young first person authors at an epiphany, but Julian’s understanding has matured greatly compared with the young fictional heroine. Margaret is like many of us – and not just pubescents. She does deals with God. She brings him egocentric lists of things she wants. She disbelieves in his existence if she doesn’t obtain those things when she wants them. She does speak honestly to God: she raves when a frenemy gets what she wants sooner (this is a period drama) and shows remorse when she has mean thoughts, and worse still, acts on them and enjoys it. Margaret thinks for herself and doesn’t fully fit the institutional mainstream world. Her parents are of different religions, and that cost Margaret’s mum her own family. Margaret is given the freedom to choose her own faith, and she swiftly observes the foibles of three denominations, including the one calling itself Holy Church – Julian’s alma mater.

I try to imagine Julian at school. She would have been very unusual. Her sheer intensity….and the things she asks God for: wounds and to co-suffer, visions and terrors. I am not judging Julian at all (nor you, if you’re reading this and feeling kindred). In a way, I can feel kindred to a soul clearly not going to meld with the conventional world, and so she willingly leaves it. I’d wondered at how she could bear to take vows and be walled up for life. It seems that being an anchoress (recluse) actually suits Julian, who might have been among those – and my readers may be others – who feel that they don’t have a place or know how to function in the warped world around them with such narrow choices for them. People have speculated that Julian was a wife and mother before entering that cell; I wonder how she felt about those roles. I’m not saying that she was bad at them, nor that other worldly people can’t be great parents or partners. I rather like Margaret’s mum Barbara, as portrayed by Rachel McAdams. I felt a little Julian in her. She followed her heart, not the exclusive evangelical way of her parents, and married a Jew. She struggles with a loving but controlling mother in law (whose loneliness I felt great compassion for) and her new suburban neighbours who wish to impose on this keen, artistic unconventional soul. She’s not naturally part of the mothers’ circles around her, though she enthusiastically tries to be.

Where would Julian be if she were alive today? Where would a Barbara Simon have been circa 1400? I wonder if some unusual deep thinkers would have chosen a cloister or closet – and still do.

I think I’m starting to part a bit with Julian – is this a reason that, despite living in her city for some years and often hearing of her, that I’ve not bought her book until now? Her God still seems sort of egotistical – wanting glory and to impose a will, and to enjoy suffering to prove his love. Radical for her time and in some ways, ours….but I think that many have moved to a different position already, and Julian’s gore and fiend fest doesn’t draw me so much. I will reiterate that the fiends are overcome.

(I wonder if Julian would be interesting to compare with Edwina Gateley…)

I’m doing a couple more Julian deeds… if they inspire me to think anew, I’ll let you know

I’m also going to explore her famed visitor and fellow writer – Margery Kempe.

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Julian 650 follow up 1: Parallel Shewings

https://shows.acast.com/between-the-stools/episodes/julian-650-follow-up-1

Above:

Jo, Julian

Neale, Joni

Notes

There is an obvious segue between the coronation and Julian (her words on the screen of annointing)

Ire and irony of presitigious academics taking over the unlettered simple woman

I reject the notion that Julian is lady in the peerage sense

Julian’s commandeered by certain Christians, but her loving Mother God speak more widely

Her book originally had no ‘divine’ in the title

Some corrections from my sermon of 7th: she wrote in middle, not old English

Did visitors and servants touch her through her windows?

Was her cell so severe?

Which St Julian was the church named after?

Comment on the statue on Norwich cathedral (in above picture)

Reprise of my 2014 lecture

Julian and Modern Mystics: Jo Dunning, Joni Eareckson Tada and Neale Donald Walsch

600 years and 1000 miles apart

What three living American writer and/or speakers have in common with Julian

Can Julian be overlaid with the law of attraction? Julian speaks of can, willing and doing as parts of the trinity: isn’t that thought, word and action?

For each, suffering started their spiritual journey and ministry

Jo and Julian specifically asked for an experience; Joni certainly did not

Some of Julian’s ideas, about oneness and God’s will for example, sound like Jo and Neale

Suffering is not punishment nor about humbling (as Joni thought) but growth

God does not blame us

Discrepancy between the church’s teaching and God’sin all but Joni

Devil…sin…evil…imagery

Did they add to the Good Book with their revealed writing?

Julian has a great deal of autonomy, but Neale is dictated didactic dialectics

Why Julian now…or at all?

More thoughts coming

What does Julian mean to you? Do tell me

[Sorry for the snuffly voice and delay in the follow up]

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A New King and A Visionary Crone

Welcome to Between The Stools 7th May 2023. Today’s service is a split topic, based on two anniversaries either side.

Yesterday was the coronation of Britain’s King Charles III; and tomorrow is the 650th anniversary of Julian of Norwich’s visions.

https://shows.acast.com/between-the-stools/episodes/a-new-king-and-a

VIDEO at https://www.brighteon.com/channels/elspethr

Me on a Westminster-like chair behind my Julian painting: She Is Our Clothing

I’ve shared some thoughts on monarchy and our royal family less than a year ago – how they have changed since I began this blog...my thoughts, that is. I had planned to take the first Sunday of June to look at coronation, since that date was Charles’ mum’s – the late Queen – and that of Anne Boleyn, 490 years ago. I’m going to look at that topic as a whole here and then move into very different celebrations and invite you on a week long journey with me.

PRAYER acknowledging that this weekend is hard for some

As with last year’s Jubilee service, the part on coronation will be a bunting-free presentation.

We’re thinking about historic monarchs this year at Between The Stools, and spent two services on the current royal family last year: the new king’s mother and ex-wife. They were contrasting appraisals. Diana had been dead for 24 years; Elizabeth was yet alive – but only for two months.

I covered my thoughts on the biblical principles of kingship and the present royals and asked the question: when the Queen passes, do we want something different?

I hoped that we might get something different.

——-

It may be significant that the Three Colours film trilogy just got a digital re-release. This first weekend of May, we in Britain and beyond are very much aware of red, white and blue – the colours also of the American flag, as the Wonder Woman TV theme reminds us: the colours of [so-called] democracy (I made a satirical painting on that – scroll to the bottom to see it). The values behind France’s flag – liberty, equality, and fraternity – which underpin a French funded classic by a Polish filmmaker are noble and significant – but were they present in the coronation, and in actuality?

I realise that I have more interest in telling you about the mid 90s movies, but I will state this link before moving on: in the first film, Blue, starring Juliette Binoche, is a commissioned magnum opus, not unlike coronation music. But here, no person is being crowned: the country of France is being crowned, or more accurately, a group of countries is being crowned: the Unification of Europe. Massive music is composed to celebrate an amalgamation which had begun twenty years earlier. Charles was crowned a little after his country left that controversial conglomeration – the European Union; but at a time where a globalised new world order is being pushed…which he is part of driving.

Having heard three other national anthems recently, I’m struck that whereas other lands sing an ode to the country, Britain’s anthem is directly to the monarch. I understand why it’s felt that Blake’s poem Jerusalem, set to Parry’s stirring music, would suit us better – it is more in line with Nordic patriotic paeans. I’m struck by our pomp and circumstance music being just that, and that Zadok the Priest made for George III by Handel (which worsens when the singing starts) is no longer sublime to my ear, nor about touching the divine but in making its human recipient divinely untouchable by likening this worldly ruler to some mythic great (in this case, Old Testament King Solomon, in the line of David and Jesus). Caesar is another favourite.

I didn’t really want to participate in this show but did so because I wanted to have information for this service and because it is a significant event. It’s the first opportunity for anyone under 70 to have witnessed a coronation in Britain; and I wonder – and wish – that this might be one of the last, at least of this kind.

I’ve been surveying celebrations. Backpackers with Union Jack wellies queued ahead of me at the station loos, clearly planning to queue for even longer to get a place among London’s crowds. Bunting and flags and window displays appeared in many homes and businesses – but not all. Some of us donned our national colours, but this outfit was bought because I like it some years ago, between royal occasions; I also wore it to see Superman recently – another national figure. I noted that supermarkets stayed open as usual throughout the morning’s events and cinemas continued their usual programme – we seem less affected than by the Queen’s death. I know some regular events were suspended in favour of royal ones. Bonfires and fireworks (I abhor the latter, being so distressing for animals and others). Picnics and tea parties. Free public screenings in selected community centres, cinemas and churches. One parish church had a concert by “The Illuminati” – isn’t that illuminating?

The alternative media point out that Charles explicitly spoke of the Great Reset soon into the coronavirus period. We might note that ‘corona’ means crown. I share their alarm about that, and some of his values and friends…and whether this is a new era or the next stage of a game plan.

I support Charles’s architectural views but not how he treated Diana; and having explored their relationship from both sides, I still conclude in her favour. I have compassion on him for the cool upbringing and schooling he endured, but the apparent lack of emotional connection isn’t excused. At least we are in a world where we can air views, and I’ve been shocked by some of the daring intimacies revealed and assessments made, and the celluloid portrayals.

I’d like to make a few brief observations before moving on…that the cost is covert until after the ceremony, but met by the public purse. Elizabeth II and George VI’s cost about £20-50m today, depending on who you ask. Even £20,000,000 is 1/3 of a million for each person in Britain – or the price, quite shockingly now, of the average house….for a day, a morning…. of ridiculous costumes, pomp…. Yes, an attempt to nod to multiculturalism, but no Pagans and no Dissenters.

This near two hour communion service (followed by much marching) was as much about the Anglican church receiving a new figurehead as the Untied Kingdom and Commonwealth.

However, Charles did make a change to his oath regarding being ‘defender of the faith’ – so ironic considering that the first monarch to receive that title, who we’ll think of in January, was Catholic.

The archbishop said “the church established by law, whose settlement you will swear to maintain …will seek to foster an environment in which people of all faiths and beliefs may live freely”.

I’m interested in the ‘may live freely’. It didn’t say ‘can freely and openly express those beliefs and practice their faith’. Charles will seek to foster such an environment…but he doesn’t guarantee it. Perhaps as constitutional monarch he can’t.

I am glad that Charles pledged that we may all live freely, for there’s been concern about how free we are and how free the establishment plans for us to be. But there’s its plans, and God’s, and ours. One can only rule by consent [the people’s and God’s].

Meanwhile – and I do wonder what this event is meant to get us to look away from – many interesting changes are occurring, especially on a financial front. I watch with interest.

I was going to discuss being crowned, linking it to the anointing by oil that’s behind the title Messiah; the servant King…. and the other Charleses, bookending Britain’s only period without a monarch, who abused the people in different ways, and what this meant for religious freedom. I think there’s much to learn from the C17 and I’d like to spend some time in it with you another year. I feel that much of the above has been or is being said elsewhere, or will come up later in our History Year. This is the one piece of planned history in the making that we’re witnessing and participating in, rather than looking back.

——————A little break… [maybe listen to Jerusalem…still no music access to play it to you]—————–

On the eve of the coronation, when concerts and vigils were taking place, in Norwich there was an eve of another event, also celebrated internationally. It was heralded by a half day of silent prayer. This was a date that could long be predicted – unlike the placing of Charles’ new headgear (or had that been planned like the first Elizabeth’s, with astrologers?). There was a solemn ceremony performed for a lifelong vocation, but it was in a small church in Norwich, and unlike a monarch, there could be several of these in one nation at a time. I know of two others in Norwich.

I’d like to introduce her to any who don’t know her – yes, Julian’s a girl – and then I invite you to spend a week with me, perhaps two. This is definitely a staycation – of a spiritual kind.

I note certain changes in the canon of knowledge since I’ve known Julian. I was originally told that she was probably a nun at nearby Carrow Abbey and that she changed her name to the church in which she lived, so that we don’t actually know her identity. Now I hear that Julian was a woman’s name – like Juliette Binoche, or as one manuscript renders her, Juliana. She might not have been a nun – she might have been a wife and mother.

All I can tell you is that the church is still called St Julian and that Lady or Mother Julian has an official saints’ day tomorrow, 8th May. And that churches dedicated to Julian are rare: there is one in Shrewsbury, and St Botolph’s priory in Colchester was jointly dedicated to Julian.

We have little biographical detail: her visions were received in this week in 1373, when she was 30; she was an anchoress, which I’ll explain, in this little church of King St, in the south of the walled city of Norwich; and a scribe tells us she was yet living in 1413…I have read she may have lived into the next decade, but her dates are unknown.

We do know that she entered the church after these visions and spent many years contemplating them, and wrote a book: The Revelations of Divine Love. It is the first to be authored by a woman in English.

She was visited by fellow Norfolk mystic and author Margery Kempe of Lynn.

There is a long and short version of Julian’s work: the short exists in a single manuscript, I’m told; the long has three texts. They are in old English, roughly contemporary with Chaucer, and so are usually translated; but there are these different versions to choose from or work in, and decisions to make about altering Julian’s words for a modern ear. I can’t find the one version which had the actual words next to modern ones, so I am always reading someone else’s choices.

Julian and I met exactly 25 years ago. I encountered her five years before in a Religious Studies seminar by the excellent Linda Woodhead and Andrew Shanks. I hadn’t come across a mystic before, but I was interested in this one because she came from my region.

Newly moved into Norwich, the city of my dreams, I was invited to an event to mark the 625th year since this famous daughter received her visions. It was a script in hand reading of the play by Shelia Upjohn, A Time Out Of Mind. Eleven years on, I’m laying on the hill overlooking the city with Shelia’s Why Julian Now, hoping to move back. Both of those are relevant sentiments…

This is the journey I’d like you to take with me is to think on and better yet read Julian this week – and if you can join a Julian event (including online), even better.

I’m going to come back to you and share my thoughts on this woman and her sixteen shewings.

I may also reprise the lecture I gave nine years on her comparing her to modern mystics – Neale Donald Walsch, Jo Dunning and Joni Eareckson… Not the names you were expecting to hear ofr modern mystics? Listen to my definition of mystic…you’ll probably qualify.

Not expecting to hear those names above in the same sentence? I love to make unexpected connections…and this began reading Shelia’s book that Easter of 2009.

For now, I wish to share my thoughts on modern and medieval nuns.

The mediaeval one is Julian and what they did to her.

The modern one is me.

I wish to speak against this horrific idea of anchorism, giving someone the last rites, walling them into a small room, and in some cases, making them dig their own grave and then live around it until they need it. They had unpaid servants (I call that slavery) under the guise of spiritual service. (It recalls that line in Austen’s Lady Susan about being vulgar to pay [your underling] when there’s an element of friendship involved. Substitute friendship with holy work and asceticism.) Of course, anchorites still needed to pay the church for their upkeep. I’ve heard of anchorism described as getting away from the control of patriarchy and remaining independent by AN Wilson in the introduction to my version (based on Grace Warrack’s translation published by SPCK) but I think he’s misunderstood this practice. I’m also cross at Deepak Chopra’s take on Julian in his book God where he lazily misread ‘wool’ for ‘wood’ trade, and then riffs on Norfolk’s great forests which created Norwich England’s then second city. It’s sheep coats, Deepak!

I note that the usual monastic vow of staying on one site (not normally one room) was couched as ‘stability’ but that word today feels far from losing the right to roam. Julian allowed herself to be imprisoned for life, without an exercise yard, and only a squint into the church she was attached to. She gave up touch for the rest of her years – at least 40. I think she was expected to give up too much. I watched a documentary about a modern Benedictine nun and wondered how her loved ones must have felt during her service of dedication. I wonder even more at the pain and confusion which Julian’s felt at her entering a living death – like that of the evil Kryptonian trio in Superman movies. Julian is banished to a phantom zone, taking the biblical ‘in the world but not of it’ (Romans 12:2) to extreme, making her life to be a holy example to be admired.

I wonder at what can have persuaded her to have taken such a step?

And what can have made the church conceive of such a ‘vocation’?

I’d like to briefly and finally think of myself, and perhaps you can relate…a modern, free range, plain clothes nun. Tomorrow my guest blog post on Lauri Ann Lumby’s website goes out about this topic. I’ve further thought that this name I gave myself at university briefly was increasingly apt. I like quiet days and silence and reflection and study. I choose them. But I see no reason to vow to give up the possibility of noisy days, of relationships, fun, of own clothes, holidays, own choice of bed time…Does God wish us to vow, or is that a human insistence on binding contracts? I also see that I have been called to this enjoyment and need of quiet among its antithesis: the row round me of my student days has oft continued. I am still in the world, although like others listening to or reading this, this world as it currently is can feel overwhelmingly harsh and alien at times. But I am comforted that not only am I not alone in feeling this – and thus, neither are you – but that I continue to hear how the old world is falling away and that we really will see a different one, where sensitive uncommon souls like Julian can thrive without being cut out of it.

Do introduce yourselves on betweenthestools@hotmail.co.uk and let me know your (constructive) thoughts on this, or how you are.

And do check back next Sunday night when I’ll have an update…I may do one more, but it probably won’t be another live service

The next of those is 25th June on Etheldreda, another East Anglian special lady with a special anniversary.

So…do join me on a Julian journey this special Julian week (see https://julianofnorwich.org) and check back next Sunday

The painting in the background is explained here

Blessings and thank you for joining me and hope to see you again

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Green Pastilles, blue clothing: in remembrance of my Mum’s 10th anniversary

Ten years ago, I lost my Mum. I want to share some thoughts and two pictures inspired by her.

(You can hear me reading this on https://shows.acast.com/between-the-stools/episodes/green-pastilles-blue-clothing-in-remembrance-of-mums-10th-an)

https://shows.acast.com/between-the-stools/episodes/green-pastilles-blue-clothing-in-remembrance-of-mums-10th-an

This was painted on the first anniversary of her death – it’s called

“Ascent of the Duzzy Heron”.

Ascent of the Duzzy Heron

The heron had elicited two strong but opposing reactions from our family. Granddad saw it as a fish taker. He referred to it as “duzzy” – a local gentle expletive, since, as evangelicals, we can’t say fuckin’. (Yes, I know…Would Jesus like to hear me say that?)

For Granddad, then, the bird was a menace.

But for Mum, it was a source of joy. Mum would watch this heron, often from the window, and await the moment when the slim leggy bird spread its vast wings. Its whole presence expanded and it truly was a magnificent – but elusive and fleeting – sight. She would often call us over as the unfurling began, but I always missed the show. The heron was a wide eyebrow shaped mark in the air, rapidly disappearing, by the time I viewed it.

On the day of Mum’s funeral, I returned home alone and I saw, for the first time, the heron as it rose with the grace and span of Isaiah’s eagles and flew up into the heavens.

And I felt it was a sign of Mum, and so involuntarily, I saluted it.

It was thus a natural focus for an anniversary painting. The heron, more iridescent silver than grey, represented Mum, rising from the murky waters of her illness – a subject much in our collective minds at present; the green is the trees behind, although this is also about growth and new life; and blue, her favourite colour, and white flecked with light, symbolises her new celestial home. For she and I absolutely believe in paradise, and the transcendence over death however it comes for us.

In the heron’s beak is a green pastille.

It may seem unremarkable that I ate one that day. But I was 15 before I tasted one; and for the last eighteen months of Mum’s life, all greens had to be handed over to my mother with a partiality for the little sugary round Rowntree sweets.

In church as children, during long sermons, Mum opened the silvery wrapper and passed it along to us in the pew, but the green ones were extracted before being proffered. Green ones were snatched by right until we earned and were able to buy our own confectionary and eat them away from Mum’s eyes.

In my teens, there was a deliciousness in discovery of a rather nice hitherto unchewed flavour. I hadn’t minded giving over the again green pastilles when Mum got ill – it was affection as much as deference, a willing sacrifice.

On the bedside table, beside a stripped mattress that once carried our matriarch, was a single green pastille.

And, like Eve, I did take and ate it. (She’d have hated that wrongful grammar).

It felt deliberate, like an invitation to take the red pill of The Matrix, to step into life’s fullness – a final gift, as if the woman who bore me gave me life a second time.

The other painting is called “She Is Our Clothing”. It comes from a quote from Mother Julian’s’ Revelation of Divine Love. Julian wrote “He is our clothing”, but her constant reference to God as Mother – which I have long believed – made  this a natural title choice. Mum died close to the anniversary of Julian’s visions, which is celebrated in my city, where Julian lived. I had kept both something Mum bought me and something she wore, and I used them in this artwork. The navy shirt – Mum’s favourite colour and one she was glad to see on our backs as well as her own – got ripped in place that Jesus was torn. Across the painting, the arms of this smock and those of a hoodie of Mum’s are wrapped, enfolding us. The painting itself has imagery from Julian’s medieval book: the hazelnut, the soul as a city – naturally, I’ve drawn this one – are in the Vesica Pisces shape often seen in medieval seals, but this has another, ahem, relevant thought to the title of the piece. Around it is He is Our Ground, The Purse!! (Julian said it, I painted it!), Knitting, and further maternal imagery that is currently covered up! (one for another sermon – Mum wouldn’t have liked that any more than my duzzy translation). There is also the Devil and flames which Julian was taught not to fear, as they are already overcome by our Lord. And that as the hazelnut tells us – everything that is made, is held by God.

In my own life and the collective life of the world, I felt need of being reminded of God’s nurturing, sustenance, love, and power over all; that his arms enfold us, as a Mum, as I remember and celebrate the life of mine. Yes, I’m eating green pastilles in her memory.

I have seven of them lined up to eat ceremonially at the moment of her passing.

 

She is Our Clothing photos by me1

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Infinitely Beloved and Rock and Roll Religion

I heard two lectures in churches last weekend, both by men eminent in their fields and their denominations.

To be fair, I shall name neither speaker.

The first was a modest affable thesis that God and us are infinitely capable of loving, infinitely lovable, and that we are infinitely beloved. He said truly grasping this would revolutionise the relationship with ourselves, God and change society.

And he tied in Julian of Norwich with Casualty! [hospital TV drama]

The second was an arrogant sounding but poorly delivered and argued piece diluting a Gospel to crude psychological archetypes that made his offering of Christianity seem pale in comparison. More annoying archetypes were in his assessment of denominations and the attributes of star birth signs. He was hypocritical, making assumptions about beliefs and showing the same generalisations that he criticised others for.

A follow up talk was on how we should be more “rock and roll” in religion, which for him meant the antisocial behaviours of pop stars of his youth. He said he preferred Ireland to New Zealand because it felt alive with drunkenness and beggars in the street! He confuses radical, full living with immaturity and lack of consideration. Smashing up hotel rooms and angry swearing and drug abuse are not signs of coolness and cultural significance. He forgot too that for many, real faith is about a radical life view, not cosiness and prohibition.

There were things I did not enjoy in the first lecture – its slow and deliberate delivery was sometimes difficult and I yearned for some passion – which the second did (if you call thumping a lectern and a bit of a shout “passion”). But it was the former who had enthusiastic applause, and I saw one audience member rush up and hug someone and say it was the best speech he’d heard – ever.

And I knew instantly which of the two made me feel so warm and I moved that I wanted to rush home and be with those thoughts. I know which speaker’s hand I’d rather shake, and to whom I shall write to thank.

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Good Friday

As we’re close to the Easter season, I’d like to share what I wrote last year on my new take on this day

http://relijournal.com/christianity/good-friday-2/

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